On Saturday June 16, I lost my beautiful dog, Bunny Bell. It was completely unexpected and I’m still in shock. I rescued Bunny over ten years ago from the Bill Foundation. She was in a shelter about to be euthanized when a wonderful couple saved her and fostered her until she found her forever home with me.

I can’t say enough about rescue animals. She was the most incredible dog I’ve ever met. I know every parent thinks that their furbaby is the best but seriously, Bunny was. Everyone she met (and she met so many people in her beautiful life!) could not get over how good she was. I feel so incredibly lucky to have been able to have such a long, happy time with her in my life.

Many of you asked what happened after hearing the news on Instagram. Bunny developed a very rare blood clot, where part of her spine broke off and punctured her lungs. It all happened so suddenly and she passed away in my arms. I’m so thankful that she didn’t experience pain.

I want to thank everyone for all their support this past week. The comments, DMs and texts I’ve received have majorly helped me get through this difficult time. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful support system, both in real life and online and on social media. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

A few of you have asked if I’ll be getting another dog. I know Bunny would want me to rescue another animal who needs a loving home. So when I’m ready I will adopt a little boy in her memory. In the meantime, I’m just cherishing all the happy times I had with my little girl.

To help the healing process, I wrote a letter to Bunny and wanted to share it with my Sydne Style fam. I’ll be doing a video tribute soon with her endless photos and videos. For now, I look at her pictures every day, both on my phone and through her Instagram hashtag #bunnybell. It warms my heart to see how loved my baby girl was from people around the world. Thank you again for showing her love over the years.

A letter to my precious angel

Dear Bunny Bell,

Hi my precious angel. I miss you so incredibly much. I can’t even put into words how empty it feels without you by my side. I still remember the day we first met. You looked up at me with your beautiful brown almond eyes and my heart melted.

I picked you up and you kissed my nose. I was overcome with joy. I instantly knew we were meant to be together.

The first day you came to my home with your wonderful foster parents was one of the happiest days of my life. You didn’t really care about the toys I prepared for you but you loved my clothes. You were so my daughter. You’d nest in my sweatpants on the floor and create a bed with your pink blanket.

You were so good from day one. You quickly learned to use the grass on the balcony, and the sun-drenched tiles soon became your favorite spot to tan. But bed was always your favorite. Your little Bunny snores would help drift me off to sleep. But my favorite time with you were the mornings. Like me, you were never a morning person. We’d lounge in bed and you’d dig the covers, first in slow motion with your little right paw, then your left. Then you’d go double speed with both paws, earning you the nickname DJ Bunny.

We traveled everywhere together: San Diego, Memphis, New York and Miami. When I couldn’t take you with me, you stayed with your GrandBunny and many aunts and uncles, all who loved you so much. You always helped me with my work, whether it was laying on my clothes as I prepped outfits, entertaining everyone on set, or even modeling on national television. You truly were a Hollywood princess.

I see you everywhere… staring up at me from the passenger seat while I drive, greeting me at the door with a big smile when I come home, dancing at the door when you think there’s a delivery, enjoying treats in the corner and drinking water by only licking the side of the bowl, creating little spots on the couch with your nose while I watch TV, prancing down the hallway then doing barrel rolls at the front of our apartment, licking away my tears when I’m sad and snuggling in my arms.

I wish you could lick away my tears right now. I’m holding your blanket so tight, wishing you were still with me. The only comfort I have is knowing that you had the most amazing life.

You were always happy. You never had any pain. Even at the end, when you left for rainbow bridge, it was peaceful, and you were snuggled in my arms.

I know you’re having a blast right now, prancing around with your friends and family and eating all the steak, chicken and burger cakes you want. I feel you smiling down at me every moment of every day.

I miss you so much my precious angel. Thank you for giving me the best ten years of my life. I will always love you. You will always be a part of me. And I know that one day, you will be in my arms again.

I love you always and forever Bunny Bell,
Love, your Mommy

“If love alone could have kept you,
You would have lived forever.”