It’s crazy how much can change in a month. Just a month ago I was stressing out about my birthday. I turn 36 today. They say age is just a number. And granted, I don’t feel 36. But I always thought my life would look different at this age. For weeks, my mind constantly raced with questions: Do I have enough time left to start a family? Should I freeze my eggs? Am I successful enough for my age? Should I be doing more? What am I even doing with my life?!
My coping mechanism was to plan a trip. I booked a girls trip to Miami, my hometown. And I reached out to some of my favorite brands to partner on posts so I would at least feel productive on my birthday. I was feeling a little calmer until all hell broke loose… for all of us. I immediately canceled my trip and sat with my family in San Diego glued to the news. Suddenly, my “problems” about my age seemed so trivial.
For the past week, I’ve barely thought about my age. Yes, I’m spending my birthday without a husband or a child in self-quarantine. But you know what? I’m alive and healthy. I have a roof over my head. And I have the cutest dog to cuddle with. And it’s made me realize how lucky I truly am. Instead of feeling down about my age, my heart aches for people with true problems: those who are sick, those who are losing their jobs and those who are hungry.
So my birthday wish this year is just for everyone to do their part to slow the spread of the coronavirus and stay home. I wish for us to all to be kind to others. I wish for us all to rise through these dark times together.
If you want to celebrate my birthday with me, I’m asking my #ssInstaFam to donate to Feeding America over on my Insta Stories.
I’m matching every dollar for my birthday.
Just tap the donation link in my stories. Instagram makes it super easy!
My birthday also always falls on the first day of Spring. Usually that excites me because it means a new season of fashion and beauty. But this year it has a deeper meaning. It’s a time of rebirth. And it is my hope that as horrible as this pandemic may be, that we all come out of it as kinder and more compassionate beings.
Spring is also a time of hope. So even though we can’t walk hand in hand with each other amongst the flower fields right now, the flowers are still blooming. And with each bloom, hope arises. As the darkness passes, my birthday wish is that we’ll shine bright together again.